Friends.

Recently, I started thinking about who my real friends are in my life. It was difficult and rather emotional. Friends who I thought would be there for me, were always not there. What is the point of the occasional 'How are you?' when you do not follow up thereafter. You leave me hanging there, waiting for an answer, for you to probe further and to care more for me. I start to think about such friends, if they are truly worthy of my attention, my effort and my time. Sadly, perhaps not. There are of course those who will ask 'How are you' once in a while and genuinely care for me. I feel their concern but what is the constant taunting, comparing and judging for? I start to wonder if it is really possible to find a true friend in today's society. A true friend who will always be there for you, who cares about you from the bottom of their heart (even if it's once in a blue moon), who sees you for who you are.

Of course, it takes two hands to clap. I have to admit I am not the best of friend one can have. In the past, I'm the kind who would not organise meet ups or randomly message someone to ask how they are doing. I'm trying my very best to put in more effort to maintain the friendships worth keeping. I am learning and hoping that friends whom I had neglected in the past would accept me once again :)