To make up

Barely a month after we seemingly resolved our issues, we had an argument again. This time, I feel hatred and anger towards him. It's the same thing over and over again. I merely wanted him to do something which I thought would be good for him. But then I was met with more arguments and 'attacks' from him. Yes, I could have just cuddled and hugged him and to make up. But I was still seething with anger and just felt so unfair. Everytime I try to say something, he has something to say. Even better, he can remember things so well to quote one off incidents to attack me. What can I say. Nothing to say. I wanted to make up. But I didn't know my choice of words. I didn't know what to say. I feel hatred. I really hate him for always saying that I'm always angry, for quoting one off incidents to shoot me back, for trying to justify his behaviour. Maybe I should be the one to suck it up. I feel like I'm his property. I should listen and not argue. I should respect his current habits, even if I disagree with them. I shouldn't care about him. Why should I try to change him. I know he cannot be changed by me. I'm merely a peck of dust in his life.